Before Ana could say anything, Darana forwarded the recording once more. This time she stopped it in mid-hesitation. The discussion revovled around a young Jedi-Trainee named Derrick. "Now," Darana began, "You will tell me everything you know about this Jedi Derrick." Suddenly the Lieutenant paled, feeling shocked, and then highly embarrassed. Darana noted the blush rising in the young woman's cheeks, "There is no room here for your emotional concerns. You will not hesitate to answer me again." It was very evident from her thoughts, that Ana was romantically interested in this young man. Darana wondered briefly if the pilot was husband searching and thus interested in every male that turned her eye. "Yes Ma'am." She replied, "He told me stories of the Empire doing evil things to people and wanted to know why I served the Imperial Service. He said he could get me a pilot job with the Alliance, and I refused." She paused a moment, then continued, "He .. he is handsome and was really nice to me... and I developed feelings for him." She paused again, collecting her thoughts, "But he has not asked me since to change my allegiance, and I have not seen nor heard from him in over a year," she finished. "I do not know where he is, what he is doing," she added. "Is there anything more?" Darana inquired. She blushed again. "I ..... still have feelings for him." She felt horribly embarrassed. "I wrote to him once, but he never wrote back," she said, sounding disappointed. Yet she felt a conflict, since her allegiance is with her Imperial Service, and his is being a rebel. Conflict. Darana made a mental note of her conflict and disappointement. However, she decides, there is a deeper issue here that may very well require a session all of it's own. Perhaps Lilith or even Eric, Darana decides. Yes Eric would rather enjoy the pain he would feel from this one. She just wasn't sure Eric would be as educational in his implemetation as Darana would require the session to be. Lt. Rowan sat there, very embarrased for her feelings, then tried to control herself again, focusing on staying attuned to answering questions and keeping them simple. Without comment, Darana forwarded the recording yet again. Ana has quite clearly rolled her eyes at Shade. Ana watched, feeling the pressure less than she had been. Her reaction is anger at herself for her previous actions and she mentally chides herself as 'stupid'. Darana laughs aloud, "Good, you see the folly of reactions." 'And if I had known what that SOB was going to do to me later....' then she stopped the thought, stopped the anger, and focused..... 'Accept the mistakes. Can't do a damn thing about them now anyway,' she told herself, and tried to relax a little bit. But she was clearly still tense. Then tensed more and was shocked when she realized Darana had laughed. And then remembered, Darana was also listening to her thoughts. Darana smiled almost predatorily at her. "Yes Anastayza, I heard that. And what he did is nothing compared to what I am going to do to you." Uncertain what to make of Darana's comment, she thought about her recent experiences. 'What now? Worse than gripping pain? Losing consciousness? Being mind r....' she stopped her thought and simply gave in to the inevitable. 'Ok, what happens, happens. Period.' "Much better," Darana nodded to her in approval, "you finally understand that you are not in control here." 'Oh I got that right.' She almost laughed at herself, then caught herself in time and just accepted the statement of the situation. "So." Darana began, then moved behind the desk and sat down again. Her manner suddenly professional, "You are an arrogant pilot, you seek adrenaline rushes, have a problem with authority, you constantly question your superiors, and you have a moral dilemma about your loyalities to the Empire." At first Anastayza Rowan thought she was finally understood by this woman, then returned to her perpetual state of confusion, 'What moral... oh' she realized, and then thought about how the few could save the many and thought about the moral lesson there. "What exactly would you do if you were in my situation?" Darana asked her in all seriousness. While taken by surprise, Ana had an answer ready, "Ma'am I am a good pilot. If you are in need of one, I am would serve you obediantly," she replied. "If you needed an Imperial officer to represent you or do things for you that did not involve piloting, I would not be your best choice," she added, sincerely, knowing she has her issues with authority. Darana gritted her teeth once again. How was she ever going to get through to this woman. She so hated to waste life. "Again you do not answer my question." Ana's thoughts went on to how there was no conflict regarding her duties as a pilot. "Alright Lt. Let's try this another way... you are on a mission.... you come up against your jedi..... you must kill him or allow us to be taken prisoner..what do you do?" Not following along until the question is reworded and she hears the word mission, then she understood. Then .... facing Derrick? Shit. "Ma'am, if I am piloting a ship, and faced with an enemy ship, I will protect my crew and cargo from the enemy." "DID I SAY You were on a SHIP?" Darana yelled, losing all patience. She started to reply, "I am not skilled in hand to hand combat, and would not be a good choice for such situations, Ma'am. I am a pilot...." Suddenly the world changed, Ana was disoriented and confused. First, she was being shot at then her ship crashed and her passengers were unconscious. Recent memories of Darana and Shade were pushed aside and gone as she began to react to the weapon fire.
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